When the end becomes the beginning.
This Thursday I leave my now familiar and comfortable room in Kona and begin that which I came here to do. Figure out what being a Voice for the Voiceless means for me. I am slowly, but surely getting my things packed together and paying an unreasonable amount of money to mail home a box of stuff I will definitely not be needing while in the jungles of Panama or in Africa. And if I had to say one thing that I have learned about myself during this past couple of days it is that I live out of excess. I am beginning to recognize the difference between a want and a need as well as the joy of having little. The freedom of being able to live out of a suitcase and not feeling like I am missing anything. I hope that this lesson can be carried further as I leave for outreach and see how the majority of the world actually lives. I am seeing that being able to go out and spend $10 on one meal and not have to worry about it is such a blessing when there are families who live off of $1.25/day. I feel so blessed and embarrassed at the same time as I look on my spending habits… which I will admit… are not very good at all. I could pass the blame and say that it’s not my fault because I am young, or go to say that growing up we didn’t have a lot so now that I don’t have to worry about it I like to explore this freedom. But I am not going to do this because I don’t believe in passing the blame – I like being accountable for decisions, good or bad.
All this to say, I am blessed to live in North America and have the life I do and also the monetary freedom I have. I do see though that there needs to be some changing in my spending habits once I return home and throughout the rest of my time here. And as much as I would like to have a credit card once I get back home, until I get this whole “life-lesson” down-pact, it is safer not to!!
So now this journey here in Kona, Hawaii has come to end and I feel like I have learned way to much for my mind to comprehend, a whole new journey is about to begin and I am so excited.
and nervous.
{little frightened as well}
but really excited and full of anticipation.
I fuly expect God to do amazing things and I hope He really uses me to help other people. I realize that life when lived in humility and servitude it so much more meaningful and fulfilling. There is so much joy in laying down everything i have before God, the creator of the entire universe, saying “Have this and make it yours” and knowing that He will make a life for me way better than my wildest and most extravagant dreams.
I am so enraptured by this next 3 months and what they will hold. I can’t wait to get on here and write about my experiences and display the photos I take. I am going to make myself be more active on here as this is where the absolute journey begins. The past 3 months have been my teaching and growing phase, this next 3 months is where I will put all I have been taught into action and find my own place in this divine plan of God. And I know without a doubt that with His hand upon this journey and our hearts submitted completely to His will, it is going to be amazing.
I am blessed to have you as a part of this journey with me and I thank you once again for all your support!









